When I get no news from Iraq
Ξ November 24th, 2008 | → 9 Comments | ∇ Everyday Stuff |
Communication from Iraq is pretty bad. Calls get dropped, skype hardly ever works, emails get delayed.
So I try not to worry when I don’t hear from my husband, or the phone rings unexpectedly late at night. I know he has a safe job, on base.
Usually.
Sometimes he has to go on a convoy. Or take a helicopter. Or both.
On the same day.
And then there’s nothing.
No phone calls. No emails.
(Where is he? Why hasn’t he emailed? Please, God let him be safe.)
And a day goes by with no word.
And I wake up the next morning, thinking now there’ll be an email from him.
(Pleasepleaseplease)
But there is nothing.
(Please let him be ok. Please let him be ok.)
And then someone comes to the door. And I think maybe I shouldn’t answer it. Maybe I don’t want to know who is on the other side of it. Maybe this is it.
(Oh God, don’t let this be it don’t let this be it don’tletthisbeit)
And it’s not. It’s just a friend who was out and decided to drop something off.
And so I wait. And I pray. I feed my children and clean the house.
And I check my email obsessively.
Until finally, finally there is an email from him. The lines were down and he couldn’t email or call.
(ThankyouthankyouthankyouGod)
And I know that we’re not even halfway done with this deployment. How many more times will I have to wonder?
on November 24th, 2008 at 6:46 pm
I pray that there will be no more times. Christy, what is the number one thing I can pray for for you? I’d like to more but living so far away, the thing I know I can do is pray. When we went through deployment last year, I was so lonely and afraid and really didn’t have many people reach out to me and I promised myself that I’d be a better friend than that to other women going through deployment. So, if you have something that I can pray for, I’d love to. If you have a real tangible need, share that, too.
on November 24th, 2008 at 7:29 pm
I can’t imagine but like Heather I would love to know I can pray daily for you.
on November 24th, 2008 at 8:43 pm
I can’t imagine what you are going through. I want to thank you for being willing to go through this and for your family’s sacrifice! I also want to thank you for sharing these things so we are all reminded of what our soldiers are sacrificing.
on November 24th, 2008 at 9:02 pm
*Hugs* You and Isaac and your entire family are in my thoughts. I haven’t quite been where you are…close…but not quite. And I loathe the day that I am there…or that Dale is in that place thinking about me, which is equally likely. I can’t imagine, don’t want to imagine it, have so many friends who have been there, and even a friend who opened the door when it wasn’t a friend on the other side.
I wish I could say or do something that would make it easier, or even better – make it all ok. But you have your faith and the faith of many others on your side.
*really big hugs*
on November 24th, 2008 at 10:26 pm
I’m sorry Christy. And so appreciative of this transparent post.
Kate
on November 24th, 2008 at 10:37 pm
Oh you poor thing. I can only imagine how scary it is for you. Hang in there dearie, and know that there are a lot of people out here in the cheap seats praying for you and your family and other military families.
on November 25th, 2008 at 2:15 pm
Praying for you and Issac both! This post broke my heart…
on December 2nd, 2008 at 12:39 pm
I can’t imagine how hard this must be. I will pray that the lines of communication will be a little more cooperative for you.
on December 5th, 2008 at 3:26 pm
Oh, I could feel myself getting stressed just reading that. I’ll be praying for you!
Tara
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