One of my most difficult nights as a mom
Ξ June 28th, 2008 | → 10 Comments | ∇ Motherhood |
Have I mentioned that Isaac is gone for two weeks?
And that this week was our church’s Fine Arts Camp?
So from 9-3 every day Chloe has been off at camp, loving every minute of it, but coming home exhausted and cranky.
And Luke and Audrey are exhausted and cranky from having their naps disturbed to pick her up every day.
Which all set the scene nicely for the musical that the kids performed this evening after a long day of rehearsals.
It was really a great show. Grease-inspired with the cutest costumes. There were the main performers, but all the kids got to sing and dance in the choir and each age group got to do one special dance.
Chloe’s special dance was that fruit-hat-on-the-head one. She had the cutest bright pink skirt.
All the kids came out and got in their line to do the dance.
And she was off on the side of the stage crying.
She cried through most of the dance, then disappeared.
And I had no idea why. And I couldn’t find out why.
Because about 20 minutes into the show, which was over an hour, Audrey completely lost control. She couldn’t sit and had no place to play and after juggling her and Luke she finally had enough, threw her pacifier where we couldn’t find it and just started screaming.
So when Chloe’s big song came on I had been outside the theater for 20 minutes, trying to keep Audrey happy and quiet, trying to keep Luke from having a fit because he wanted to go back inside and watch the show, and trying to sneak peeks at the show.
And that was when I started crying.
Not only was I missing Chloe’s first-ever performance, but something was wrong, something was causing her to miss her big part in her first-ever performance and it was breaking her heart and she was sobbing and there was nothing I could do.
And I was handling it all alone.
on June 28th, 2008 at 7:26 am
Oh my goodness, Christy. I’m so sorry that it was such a rough night. Bless your heart! I hope everything turned out ok in the end and you got to comfort Chloe.
on June 28th, 2008 at 9:42 am
As an only child, the hardest part of being a mom of 3 was learning that I couldn’t be there for all my children at the same time… Sometimes it’s just hard- I hope this week is better and that Isaac comes home soon. I’ll be praying for you!
on June 28th, 2008 at 10:36 am
I feel bad for all of you! Is Chloe O.K. now?
on June 28th, 2008 at 11:10 am
I’d be crying too. I get so frustrated in those situations. Writing it out helps, knowing lots of moms out here in cyberspace helps even more. I bet next time your girl brings down the house.
on June 28th, 2008 at 11:49 am
I’m sorry…those are some of the hardest days of dealing with Dad being gone. Hopefully a night’s rest helped everyone!
on June 28th, 2008 at 5:01 pm
Oh goodness Christy! I wish I’d known, I could have come with you and been another pair of hands!! So sorry!
on June 28th, 2008 at 6:23 pm
Oh Christy!! I’m pretty sure nothing I could say can make it better so I think I feel almost as helpless as you did
I hope Chloe is ok now. I know how hard it can be with Daddy away and I have often thought that I have it easy seeing as I only have one and he so little. I don’t relish night’s like yours, even though I know they will come. But judging by all the comments…you are not alone. You are never totally alone. *hugs*
on June 28th, 2008 at 9:39 pm
Well, you are braver than I. Because I just knew stuff like that would happen, I avoided it. I stayed at home and only went out when I had to. We didn’t do any fun stuff and we hardly ever even played outside. I did all of my crying in the privacy of my own home. But you have to think, as hard as it was, you went through that so Chloe could experience an amazing week with God and fellow God-lovers. That is more important than anything. Luke and Audrey had to take a back seat so that Chloe could have her time. It’ll be their time one day soon. No matter how the week ended, you all sacrificed a little something to give her a little more. What a wonderful family you are!
on June 29th, 2008 at 5:56 am
Oh my! It’s times like that when you start feeling sorry for those single moms out there huh? Yikes! I told my husband he’s not allowed to go anywhere till our kids are married lol! Just for that reason right there. Oh I sure do hope the rest of the night went better. I bet they slept good huh?
Blessings,
Kim
on June 30th, 2008 at 2:00 pm
sorry to hear about the hard night
it is hard when our men are not there to share the load of whatever the little ones might unexpectedly throw at us